i smile, i laugh, i joke.
on the outside i appear as i always am. the funny, happy guy everyone knows me to be.
but on the inside, i’m miserable.
my life seems to be spiralling out of control lately.
i’m just about failing my final year of school, only because i’m so desperate to loose all my weight.
i care more about looking good, than being successful at school right now, and thats not going to change until i look amazing.
my weight loss has gotten out of control again. i’m either eating one small meal for lunch. or i’m eating a huge dinner, only to go throw it up straight after while the rest of my family sits around talking happily at the dinning table. completely unaware of what i’m doing.
i meet up with my friends, and i put on my fake smile and laugh along with them.
but then when i find myself alone, i have random outbursts for no reason. i throw things, i yell, i swear, i hit walls. or i just sit with my head in my hands and try not to cry.
its not like i have major issues in my life other than the weight. i’ve even been told many times how attractive i am and how i’m looking fantastic. but these words only make me feel happy until i walk past a mirror.
im just so lonely, and feel that i can’t possibly get anyone until i look like a super model. but i have so far to go still.
now its time to put back on the fake smile and trick my parents into thinking everything is ok.
MAKE A WISH
THE TIPPING WELL
WELL READ
- SCARF #100 13 view(s) per day
- LORD ABOVE 13 view(s) per day
- ME, YOU 8 view(s) per day
- QUALITY CONTROL 5 view(s) per day
- MAYBE BUTTERFLY 4 view(s) per day
- KISSING COUSINS 3 view(s) per day
- GOOD KISSER 3 view(s) per day
- SEXUALLY FRUSTRATED 2 view(s) per day
- GAY GRIND 2 view(s) per day
- NO DRAMA 2 view(s) per day
WISHFUL THINKING
- Anonymous on LORD ABOVE
- Anonymous on SCARF #100
- Anonymous on LORD ABOVE
- Anonymous on LORD ABOVE
- Anonymous on QUALITY CONTROL
- Anonymous on QUALITY CONTROL
- Anonymous on MAYBE BUTTERFLY
- Anonymous on STAR WISHING
- Anonymous on ME, YOU
- Anonymous on ME, YOU
THE FISHING POND
Ahh.. I went through the exact same thing in my final year at school… I hope that you get through it just like me… Now I seem to be going through the same cycle i did 4 yrs ago! Chin-up mr looks are only skin deep everything that really counts is on the inside!!
you sound like a big baby, i mean hitting things and throwing fits? That’s all kid stuff. Time for you to put your shit in order before you screw it up for good. If this is how you act when small stuff hits, imagine how you are going to act when something really bad happens.
“everything that really counts is on the inside” true. and on the inside, he hates himself for how he looks on the outside.
2nd comment, ur a cunt. just plain out a cunt. obviously you never went through what this kids going through- and yeah he’s still a kid. last year of school means 17, at most 18. u sound like your trying to make him feel bad for feeling bad.i.e. a cunt.
to the guy who wrote this- you might as well be me. i did the exact same thing, so im gunna speak from experience. if you want to lose weight then nothing anyone says will change that till your happy, but the way your doing it is doing more harm than good. you should be having breakfast every morning even if its just a protien shake, a large lunch, small dinner, and healthy snacks in between. aim for btween 1000-1200 calories a day. anything less and youre going to gain weight. and you SERIOUSLY need to stop throwing up. i could list all the general health issues it creates, but you really dont care. you just want to look like a super model. super models usually have great teeth. keep throwing up and urs will pretty much turn into swiss cheese (and leave your breath smelling even worse) if you’ve lost weight by not eating, you can more than double that by eating right. easy ways to learn how- dietician, menshealth magazine, internet.
your depressed. even when you feel fine your depressed. you need to speak to someone, and theres nothing wrong with that, nothing to be ashamed or uncomfortable about. i dont know about yours, but my GP had a psychologist working with him. if you can find a situation like that, medicare will pay for it. no1 besides you will know your seeing them, and nothing you tell them will ever leave that room. they can probably even help you find a proper eating plan.
school is important, but not the end of the world. theres countless other ways to get to uni or whatever you want to do, and some of them are better than going straight into uni.
i know what your going through, and its more than likely most of the guys on these sites do aswell. but you need to get a bit of control. see someone soon- or eventually even the fake smile will become too hard.
goodluck
wow last guy is a total douche bag. damn i guess no one has a rough time in school except overweight people. its high school it sucks even when you are in the right crowd going to the right parties. stop feeling sorry for yourself and take control of your life.
isnt that what the third guy said?
yes but he added the douche bag part, that makes it his own.
fyi we are nolonger using “douche bag” from now on its simply “Douche” thank you